wow, it’s over. step 1 of our trek to boston is complete. sunday night we said our “see you laters” to the students. it wasn’t the easiest thing in the world to do as i thought about all of the memories, but we did it. matt (the new guy) had the students pray over us and it was such an awesome thing–he’s going to do such a great job with them!
but now, now that we’ve said “see you later” the reality is setting in. “holy crap, what have i done” would be some of the sentiment and thoughts that are swirling around in my head. last night as I laid in bed (in our new bedroom in decatur) I couldn’t help but think, did i make the right decision? did i pray enough about going to boston? am i hearing God right? did i really hear God at all? did we leave too soon? things were going so well and were continuing to get better and better with each and every day…and now, now what… crap.
yesterday as i was driving down in the u-haul (never use them by the way–they’re terrible, we learned our lesson) i was using the time to listen to a few sermons by Rob Bell that i hadn’t had the chance to listen to yet. In one of them “Jesus Is Difficult: Willing the One Thing” I heard the story that I had heard so many times before where Jesus was in the village of Capernaum healing many people after the Sabbath. The next morning the villagers implored Jesus to stay with them to continue his healing ministry there when he said ‘no’.
Jesus said, ‘no’. I must preach the Good News of the Kingdom of God in other places, too, because that is why I was sent. ~Luke 4.43
Bell said that Jesus knew his focus, his purpose in life and throughout the book of Luke it revolves around Jesus going to Jerusalem (crucifixion). Jesus knew what, according to Kierkegaard, ‘the one thing’ was and he was focused on his mission.
As I remembered these things in bed last night I could only wonder what exactly my mission was in life? What was the “one thing” that God put me here to do and accomplish? Did I just short circuit that, or am I following it?
*sigh*
for now i sit in fear and anxiety (maybe it’s because the transition to decatur isn’t fully complete), but there is also anticipation, anticipation for what God has in store for us. an ancticipation that says, ‘what’s next?’ i know that God will provide, God will take care of us. this next year will be an adventure, and is just the beginning, the first steps of our adventure to boston.
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