When does it happen? When does the slow death of our childish idealism, of that passion we cling so tightly to, when does it fade into what we now possess–a mere glimmer of what it once was?
Anis Mojgani has a poem that stirred these questions within me:
I spent hours on that drawing of darkwing duck
stayed up past four just to get it right
I had school the next morning
but I needed it to be perfect
I don’t know if there’s anything I love that much anymore
I can remember a time when I would stay up late dreaming with friends, talking late into the evening or until the morning hours about the church, about the Kingdom, about changing the world… but it seems those days are long gone, and the time for dreaming is quickly pushed aside for the “pressing” tasks of the day, the details of tomorrow, the exhaustion of work.
Is this what happens to idealism? Our journey towards the realization of these dreams we’ve conjured up becomes so all-consuming that it drives away our time for new dreams and new conversations… are we really only created to pursue a limited number of dreams in our lifetime? If so, shouldn’t that make our one or two big dreams all the more special, all the more important to pursue?
How different would this world be if we didn’t allow our dreams to fade away, but pushed on no matter what and see them through to completion… or at least as far as we’re able to take them. Somehow I have a feeling that too many people give up on those dreams, their profound sense of idealism…
There have been many times I’ve come close to walking away from my dreams… I pray I never do.
Poetry is beginning to infuse our society once again with subversive themes and tones that rage against the machine we’ve become so accustomed to. This is one of those pieces that challenge us and call us to think for ourselves instead of swallowing whole what the massive media machine/industry tells us to believe and what we should be thinking about any number of topics.
How much has the church been influenced by this? What things have we allowed to win control of our minds? Makes Romans 12.1-2 seem all the more pertinent for the church to heed and follow through on.
I’ve long been a fan of the raw, authentic, transparent nature of slam poetry but no one has captured my attention more than Anis Mojgani. Recently Soul Pancake did an interview and included a couple of videos of him in action. I highly recommend checking them out and listening to the thoughts of life, spirituality and relationship that run deep within. Below is an excerpt of the interview that Soul Pancake did with Anis on spirituality and religion. Very thought provoking responses…
On spirituality, God, and (gulp) religion…
SP: Is spirituality a trend?
AM: Sometimes I think it is. Our society is weird: It’s a non-secular society that pretends it’s secular and is filled with a people that want the benefits of religion without recognizing religion as being something beneficial. We have all these things that supply us with what we hunger for—new clothes, tasty food, hot kicks, movies, television, music—but there are aspects of our make-up that don’t get fulfilled. We’ve created a society where it’s not even kosher or cool to discuss the emptiness, the unexplainable longing that passes in and out of all our lives. I feel that is connected to the spirit. There are these moments in all of us when we are inexplicably joyous or sorrowful, but we’ve boxed ourselves up so as not to talk about this as freely as we may discuss 30 Rock or Seinfeld.
That’s why spirituality becomes trendy. There is a hunger that many of us have for some divine and spiritual connection, but there is no arena to have that without committing to a religion, which a good number of us hold zero interest for. So what to do? Well, here’s this thing “spirituality.” And it allows me to feed my soul and commune with my spirit without having to deal with the connotation of organized religion.
SP: Chanting, chakras, and chopras aside, what does being “spiritual” really mean?
AM: I believe it to refers to maintaining a connection, a communication, a relationship, with the inner mechanics of the world—the same mechanics that power us.
SP: Where does God play into all of this?
AM: God is the builder of those inner mechanics.
SP:Then why is talking about God so awkward?
AM: Cuz it’s abstract! We want to be right in our thoughts and our beliefs, and for many of us, the thought of discussing that could mean that we are wrong. And that would be bigger than being wrong about a math problem—it’s being wrong about our entire structure of being.
SP: Have you ever had a moment when you felt God?
AM: I was riding a bicycle in Savannah, Ga., and something clicked. Things made sense. The blades of grass and the size of them and how small and how big they are, and it felt like I was in the lap of something bigger than all of this. I started crying—just bawling—and then I started laughing at what a sight I must have been, crying and biking in the middle of the day, and the tears came down even more and the laughs came out even harder, and the whole time, I felt him.
SP: Do we need religion?
AM: We need a new definition of religion. I think ours is outdated? Maybe too small. I need what religion actually is, which is a way to reveal to humanity how to exist as strongly and nobly as we can—and how to maintain that.
SP: What gives ‘religion’ such a bad name?
AM: People.
SP: Would the world be better off without religion?
AM: Based on the results of what we have done in the name of religion, yes. But based on what I feel religion actually is and has the potential to be, no.
